Bearded Cop & Mental Health – It’s my life & I can cry if I want to.

Over the summer, I’ve been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and a Major Depression Disorder (Depression). I’ve since started journaling in a notebook/diary in order to put down my thoughts into ink as a sort of therapeutic activity. I started journaling about anything and everything but it took me almost half a year to write about my mental health issues…maybe I was afraid to look back at the pages and have reality slap me in the face. I’ve never been a stranger to mental health issues due to my job as a police officer, but I never imagined that I would one day be diagnosed; yet here I am, with PTSD and Depression.

So why write about it for the world to see? There is still negative stigma surrounding mental health issues. I want to at contribute to taking away the stigma. I’m writing in hopes that this blog creates discussion with people who need it. There is also a selfish reason for this blog; therapeutic effect. By sitting down and creating this blog, I’m forced to reflect on my feelings, strengths and weaknesses. Writing forces me to continually self-assess myself and the circumstances surrounding my situation.

What is important to note, is that you’re getting my perspective while I’m dealing with my PTSD and Depression. My reflections are not researched; they are based on my experiences with mental health, therapy, books and discussions I’ve had with family and friends.

Let me finish today’s post by stating. I have PTSD, Depression…..and IT’S OK! I am a man, a husband, a father, a cop, a motorcycle rider, a beard and tattoo enthusiast that is currently suffering from mental health issues. Mental health transcends age, gender, sex, employment etc. It affects us all.

Stay tuned and beard on,


4 thoughts on “Bearded Cop & Mental Health – It’s my life & I can cry if I want to.

  1. Really impressed to see your courage about coming forward re mental health.
    As a male and esp a cop, your openness is a tremendous help in fighting the stigma.
    We ALL have issues. Obviously, some worse than others. But digging in, facing them, dealing with them and accepting them is what recovery is all about.
    I wish you the very best.
    Thank you for your service.
    Stay safe out there.

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  2. You are a wonderful young man who contributes in every one of your roles. You are loved and respected and will find your way through this. Your openness will inspire others to accept themselves, and perhaps, help them through too.

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  3. Thank you for sharing your story. I have been down that dark hole. With everything I ever wanted, after a life-threatening childbirth experience in 2011, I developed PTSD and post-partum depression. I was so ashamed. I had a toddler, a beautiful new baby, a new house, great husband, super job…..I had it all. I was mortified that I had developed mental illness when I had achieved all my dreams. I was angry at myself for being so weak. And then, 2 years of therapy, my stubborn refusal to take medication (against medical advice), and a long journey out of the hole. I made it. It almost cost my marriage, but we made it too. You are NOT alone. You are not weak. You are human and we all get sick. Some people fully recover; some people can have great symptom relief. You will feel more like yourself again. Be gentle with yourself. Depression lies. That voice in your head…that’s the depression. You ARE good enough. You ARE strong enough to come back. You ARE needed. You make a huge difference in people’s lives and you are loved. The PTSD symptoms, the dreams, the visualizations and images that spin you, that replay over and over… will fade. You will get better. You are powerful. You got this and your community is cheering for you. Fist pumps!

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