Over the summer, I’ve been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and a Major Depression Disorder (Depression). I’ve since started journaling in a notebook/diary in order to put down my thoughts into ink as a sort of therapeutic activity. I started journaling about anything and everything but it took me almost half a year to write about my mental health issues…maybe I was afraid to look back at the pages and have reality slap me in the face. I’ve never been a stranger to mental health issues due to my job as a police officer, but I never imagined that I would one day be diagnosed; yet here I am, with PTSD and Depression.
So why write about it for the world to see? There is still negative stigma surrounding mental health issues. I want to at contribute to taking away the stigma. I’m writing in hopes that this blog creates discussion with people who need it. There is also a selfish reason for this blog; therapeutic effect. By sitting down and creating this blog, I’m forced to reflect on my feelings, strengths and weaknesses. Writing forces me to continually self-assess myself and the circumstances surrounding my situation.
What is important to note, is that you’re getting my perspective while I’m dealing with my PTSD and Depression. My reflections are not researched; they are based on my experiences with mental health, therapy, books and discussions I’ve had with family and friends.
Let me finish today’s post by stating. I have PTSD, Depression…..and IT’S OK! I am a man, a husband, a father, a cop, a motorcycle rider, a beard and tattoo enthusiast that is currently suffering from mental health issues. Mental health transcends age, gender, sex, employment etc. It affects us all.
Stay tuned and beard on,